ARE WE MEANT TO BE HAPPY?

C'est La vie......

A rack of things run through my mind.. (If you know me then you should know that I'm rarely if at all not thinking about different things at the same time)

Sooooo for the past month or so, I've been racking my brain. Life never seems to get easier in my opinion, nor does it become less complicated.

It seems that 99.9% of the decisions I make do not lead to my happiness (quintessential catch 22s), and though the outcomes are mostly the same I continue to move forward, because to me the only thing worse than being unhappy is giving up on becoming happy.

I am a firm believer that the meaning for life is to fuck (to put it bluntly). All organisms function to prepare to reproduce, reproduce, and then ensure that their progeny can reproduce. However it doesn't explain the time in between, like Why does a dog have fun playing with a ball? or Why do we enjoy driving fast or do little girls like playing hop-scotch? these actions have no (in my opinion) function other than to make the individual happy.

So I'm like that German shepherd chasing after the tennis ball, it's just I'm always an inch away, and when I think Imma bout to sink my teeth in it, the ball disappears.

I make decisions that I don't regret, not because I always make the right decisions but because I'd rather suck it up and move on then to waste any bit of time worrying about what dumb ass decisions I've made today.


while I'm rapping like shit, the conclusion is

NO HAPPINESS + NO REGRETS = ME

WELCOME TO HEARTBREAK

Break ups are hard. Not just for one side but both.

I think alot of times, when relationships end or are suspended, it is assumed that the person initiating the break up is cool with it. However this isn't always true.

People don't always end relationships because there aren't feelings there, or they're completely tired of the individual. Sometimes relationships end because the person initiating it has to not only look out for their counterparts long term emotional well being but their own as well.

With that being said sometimes there are circumstances where one must realize that they are unable to put 100% into a relationship, and in order to sacrifice their present happiness for their long term happiness they must make decisions that they may regret and waiver on, but realize that in the longterm or for the short longterm that it will be beneficial for both parties involved.

I haven't met 1 PERSON who wants to be or likes breaking hearts. (If you kno one I stand corrected). Noone wants to hurt the person they care the most about. Some may deal with it better than others but it is never something that the people involved look forward to.

To love someone takes alot from me (I can't speak for everyone). One of the hardest things that I can do is break down and let someone in and really get to kno me. So for me to love someone that person has to kno that they will always hold a special place with me and can always ask for help or support and I would be the first person there. To be in love with someone takes even more work on my part and is almost contradictory to my personality. With that also being stated

LOVE DOESN'T CONQUER ALL

Sometimes you have to set aside your selfishness and do what's right for everyone. It may hurt but if it's one thing I've learned in my life, it's that LIFE SUCKS AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE BEST OF IT AND LEARN FROM EVERY ENCOUNTER.

DISTRICT 9

It's been awhile since I've blogged, but I keep sein the previews for this movie, and I thought this was a fitting post. btw CONGRATULATIONS TO THE GRADUATES OF HOWARD UNIVERSITY 2009 H U YOU KNOW!!!

LLS